:: m e l i s s a’s insane ramblings ::

Mood:
down
Topic: Frustration

Monday the..let’s see..* checking the calender * the 22nd. I’m siting here bored and thought I would get my blog going again.

I’ve started a diet and lifestyle change today in the hopes of
weight loss and muscle growth especially at the thighs. For those of
you who’ve known me for awhile this is pretty much the norm for me. :p
But THIS time..I have goals in mind. Certain things I am working
towards. What you ask? I can’t say. They are secret. But very much
worth the effort I believe. Being semi-slim just isn’t going to cut it
though…I can say that much.

Not sure what the deal is lately but I’ve been experiencing a bit
of..hmmm…I suppose even in mild form it is still depression..so I
guess I’ve been experiencing depression. Not exactly sure why…maybe a
lot of things. Maybe everything. Maybe I need some changes in my life
made before I go crazy.

Change and the need for it is just pouring out of my ears lately.
Maybe it’s because I just turned 21 this year…? Hardly a good reason
is it?

Actually, I know what it is. It’s what runs through my mind when I
cannot sleep. The things that stay quietly away during the day with
distractions..but which are free to come and go when I try to rest. All
of these things involve other people. People that piss me off..people
who have betrayed me..people that just annoy me even..seems to be
building. I need to find a vent for all of this. A way to get rid of
the building frustrations brought about by a passive lifestyle stemmed
from my Buddhist belief system. This…or a change in lifestyle to
something more healthy.

I’m just thinking out loud here. Feel free to go about your business elsewhere if you wish. :p

I think I’ll end this for now anyway.May compassion go with you.

M e L | s S a

Mood:
lyrical
Now Playing: Jack Johnson - Good People

This song has been playing in my head like CRAZY but I LOVE every bit
of this shit!..Yeah yeah call me crazy but where did all the good
people go?

Jack Johnson Lyrics - Good People

You win

Its your show, now

So whats it gunna be

Cause people

Will tune in

How many train wrecks do we need to see?

Before we lose touch of

We thought this was low

It’s bad gettin worse so

[Chorus:]

Whered all the good people go

Ive been changin channels

I dont see them on the tv shows

Whered all the good people go

We got heaps and heaps of what we sow

They got this and that and

With a rattle a tat

Testing one two,

Now whatcha gunna do?

Bad news, misused,

Got too much to lose

Gimme some truth

Now whos side are we on?

Whatever you say

Turn on the boob tube

Im in the mood to obey

So lead me astray by the way, now

Where’d all the good people go?

I’ve been changin channels

I dont see them on the tv shows

Whered all the good people go

We got heaps and heaps of what we sow

Sitting round feeling far away

So far away but I can feel the debris

Can you feel it?

Yo interrupt me from a friendly conversation

To tell me how great its all gunna be

You might notice some hesitation

Cause whats important to you is not important to me

Way down by the edge of your reasons

Its beginning to show

And all I wanna know is..

Whered all the good people go

Ive been changin channels

I dont see them on the tv shows

Whered all the good people go

We got heaps and heaps of what we sow

They got this and that

With a rattle a tat

Testing one, two

Now what you gonna do?

Bad news, misused, gimme some truth

You got too much to lose

Whose side are we on?

Whatever you say

Run the resolut but in the mood to obey

Station to station desensitizing the nation

M e L | s S a

I ought to be rejoicing but I’m not.
Instead I feel ashamed of myself for not watching my budget and for the last
few months of expensive holidays, 5- star tête-à-tête, insisting to go
"dutch" everytime a gentleman offers to clear the damage had landed
me so broke and hardly enjoying  the
many- many discounts of pretty sling backs, the glamorous the better dresses and
everything and anything.. 

It’s heartbreaking when everywhere you turn- you see it in flashing neon and
blinding colours - my one and only, favourite four letter word - S.A.L.E. 

Some call it a momentary flash in pan
happiness but I am perfectly happy with what it does to me- that is until I
take another good looking at my bank account statement. Retail therapy- like a
silver lining of every dark cloud, they again and again reaffirms and
objectifies my sole living purpose in this tragic and mundane life..

Life is somehow more mundane this sale season
as F.C.U.K, Mango and etc… etc… kindly hand out the opportunity of being
the proud owner of that to-die-for Kate Spade tote.

M e L | s S a