:: m e l i s s a’s insane ramblings ::

Sometimes i look back in life and wonder where the people we call our friends are at now.

The people from our school days, our college and even uni days, people we used to work with, play with and cry with.

I’ve got good friends from my school days who just live a couple of rows from my home, and some are a couple of continents away. it’s an irony that my closest friends in school are the ones who are far away from me now. and then there were the ones from after school. where’s matthew? last i heard, he’s was studying piloting. where’s dinesh? dunno. where’s elissa? where’s kimberly? where’s nik? he used to be a guy who never seize to amuse me. i miss you. where’s amy and king-king? where’s ah-chai? heard he’s working now. damn, how we all grown. only one i kept in touch with was brendon, so he does update me occosionally on the rest. For those friends in Australia; Adrian, Melissa, Balraj, Barnez and Raghu…I do hope we keep more in touch. And well my bestest friends, wendy and lynn..we go down a long long way. I’ve known lynn for  12 years and wendy for  9 years…yes these 2 monkeys , I LOVE TO THEM TO BITS!!! I’m missing you both heaps here..sob sob.

I’ve met loads, and I mean loads of people when i started working and studying in Australia. some became friends, some moved on and the one i missed most is carol. we used to work in st.george, some farm in australia. haven’t seen her for so long. do i miss her? very much.

In recent years, I’ve met loads of new friends, and a bunch of them thru my social clubs and gym. some are knuckleheads, and some are nice. will we stay friends? dunno. hope so. especially with the nice ones =)

As i look back at my life, i ask, "who are my friends?" "what are friends?" are they anchors? or drifters?..who’s to tell..I guess being so far from where I was born has it’s ups and downs.Indeed nothing is like home.

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Okay, my time is REALLY
short today: not only do I have to finish my UML, Sequence Diagram for my project, but it’s
also probably the longest one, as I flying to Adelaide in 8 hours from now..Since its been ages I have not seen Adrian, Balraj and co..haha, there will be heaps of things to catch up on.Looks like we plan to stay up all night or something man..EEEeeeeEeeee…cant wait.i miss the gun we used to have back in msia. Anyway, I’ll update pictures from my holiday ok

HOWEVER -

In
my few minutes before crashing out to bed last night at 1:30 AM, upon of my assignment, I decided to use my ‘free
time’ and begin research on, once again, calories.

Here’s what I found:

http://www.caloriecontrol.org/calcalcs.html

The web site itself is for Calorie Control,
and the articles, as I glanced them, looked quite informative and
interesting (another thing to add to the list when I finish my project). However, after entering my data, I found that I should consume 2450 calories a day to maintain.
Okay, I’ve done that, even though Calorie King suggested 2300. I
subtracted my 500 calories of exercise per day, along with removing my
300 calories a day as their weight loss formula figures, and, I am
still at around 1800. So, moral of the story: I am still not eating
enough. CK is not figuring in people like me, as few and far between as
we may be, who are more active than the Average Bear.

This
formula is making more sense the longer it takes to sink it. The few
days I "allowed" myself to get to 1800 - 1900 calories a day, I
suddendly felt my waist get flatter, my pants get more baggy and my
rings falling off, losing the usual sodium bloat that has a hold on
them (could also be statin-related). Go back to 1700 and - WHAMO
- tight rings and belly bloat again (body holding onto everything
because it’s feeling like it’s in starvation mode, even at 1700?).

Much
to ponder. If anyone does this, please let me know your results. I have
allowed myself to become the Human Guinea Pig once again and I think I
am going to try this out for the next two weeks…If i manage it that is…<<giggles>>

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Call me a nutter..all weekend plus today..I’ve been eating so much chocolates..too much actually but how much is too much. I’m a big big chocolate fan..yes I’m the type that can eat a 500g chocolate bar for dinner, I’m talking about eating all this chocolate at one go here. Yes, its amazing I still  keep my weight under control…ha ha OK..I hear you people laughing all over the floor…oh stop! The bunny is an Easter gift that I finished eating for dinner yesterday…oh boy o boy…it was s00o0o good…I fell sorry for the bunny, I really did, but he tasted so good…I couldn’t help myself!..I tried…<<giggles>>

..today after class I usually rush to work but since class finished early.. I had a little time to spare..I know walking pass queen st is a big no-no nevertheless my heart was  bigger than my head and I decided to walk on queen st to get into Wintergarden (that’s where I work). Just before reaching work, I saw the Darrel Lea Chocolate shop. Outside stood this huge egg coated with massive chocolate..it had a chocolate like fountain where the chocolate was pouring from the top to the bottom making the egg have a glossy look. I tell you, anyone in their right mine would have just loved to take a  big bite at it. I was obviously more civilize therefor I just peeked from the outside. Yet again, my heart takes over my head and I get into the shop…OMG! It’s like heaven coated in chocolate  EVERYWHERE!..I was just gonna go chocolate crazy there. Luckily my conscience came back to me, so I grabbed what I wanted,  a  rocklea road…its marshmallows covered with chocolate and peanuts…YUMMY! oh..oh…they feel so heavenly in your mouth!..I guess Easter is a time to indulge after all the sacrifice during the lent! I’ll upload more pics on my other craving…chips!

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I am in LOVE! yes i am, i am in love with the music of josh andrea bocelli, sarah brightman and josh groban. Its glued to my head..I’m talking about super glue here not just any other glue..I’m serious. The music is absulutely entrancing…really relaxing since I’m so stressed up with the never ending assignments. So to those who may need..or are looking for relaxing music…this could be it for you. A little warning though, I’m a big sucker for classical music…so if classical is a  BIG No-No to you, then you might like to reconsider.haha. Dont say I didnt warn you. Everyone likes different things..I hope you find whatever makes you smile like there’s no tomorrow.

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Long Island Zoo

So this guy apparently took his wife and beat the
crap out of her, culminating with an encounter where he chained her
naked to a basement stairwell.  He kicked her in the face with a steel
toed boot.  Half conscious, he led her to the basement and ordered her
to get naked.  he then used a heavy chain to padlock her to a
stairwell.  He then chopped off her hair with a hunting knife, and
brought him to the tatoo parlor that he owns to finish writing his name
across her back.  After he finished his artwork, he drove her back home
and locked her up again for 9 days, along with his two pet leopards.
That’s right, here’s where the story goes from heartwrenching cruelty
to oddity.  The man kept two 50 pound leopards at his house.  Also, the
police found a skinned rottweiler and a dead linx.  On a side note, he
also has 4 small children who live in this happy household.
Ordinarily,
this entire incident would just remind me of how truly sick some people
are and how i would not mind having some outragious torture bestowed
upon them.  But then, the sick bastard’s family and attorney had to
open their stupid fucking mouths.  (from the New York Post) "Yesterday,
**********[sick asshole]’s family claimed that +++++++[beaten wife]
bore some of the responsibility for what happened….  ‘+++++++ has set
out to vilify and create the image that he’s a monster,’
———[attorney] said yesterday. ‘But it take two to tango.’"
EXCUSE
ME?  WHAT?!?!  He beat the hell out of his wife for years.  He kept his
kids, wife, and her aunt hostage in a house with live leopards and
dead, skinned animals.  He broke his wife’s nose, tatooed her against
her will, and chained her to the basement stairs surrounded by 50 pound
cats with razor-sharp claws and teeth.  Explain to me the tango that
was going on there.  Someone, anyone, please explain the actions that
++++++++ should have taken?  His attorney has brought shame to my
chosen vocation.  I am ashamed and embarrassed that the state
bar that would allow this asshole to be a member.  I understand that
defense attorneys need to defend the rights of their clients.  I didn’t
realize that character assassination, after the sentence was handed
down as a result of a non-appealable plea bargain, was part of the job
description.  dick…

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A poem dedicated to ‘you’…needless to say, ‘you’ know who ‘you’ are…

You never looked so good
as you did last night,
underneath the city lights,
there walking with your friend,
laughing at the moon.
I swear you looked right through me.
But I’m still living with your goodbye,
and you’re just going on with your life.

How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don’t you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that’s just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.

You, I hear you’re doing fine.
Seems like you’re doing well
as far as I can tell.
Time is leaving us behind,
another week has passed
and still I haven’t laughed yet.
So tell me, what your secret is
(I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know)
to letting go, letting go like you did,
like you did.

How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don’t you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that’s just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.

Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Oh, and did you ever miss me,
and long to kiss me?
Oh baby, baby.

Maybe that’s just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.

M e L | s S a

Now Playing: John Williams - Sayuri’s Theme (from the soundtrack Memoirs of a Geisha)

What’s new..hmm.. apart from booking my ticket to Adelaide at 1.40am early this morning. Aparently when I can’t sleep, I seem to go to www.virginblue.com.au and book flight tickets. Hahaha..oh well that is one expensive hobby which will obviously make me bankrupt soon. I was however thinking of booking my New Zealand ticket for june but I can’t coz the exam schedule is not out yet so it’s all tentative for now.

Nothing new..except i’ve finally gone to the movies again at Southbank for the movie Inside Man. I must say the show was pretty good, much better than I expected it to be. I must say Washington, Foster and Owen did well in the show. good on ya!.. I really enjoyed it apart from the Chaiyya Chaiyya song coming from that movie…I asked Jerome, are u sure we are in the right cinema? I’m serious..the song has no relevance at all ey…When you watch that show you will so what I’m rambling about.

Apart from that, I’ve heaps of assignments to do..lotsa studying to be done  (oracle 9i -chapter 6,7 and and hear I am blogging. I sure see how I’m putting my time to good use…24 hours in a day is so not enuff, dont you think so? Hehehe..I do! ..sigh, I miss someone so much right now. I wish I could hear his voice once again. I really miss you lots, you know who you are. Why does distance have to be a barrier? Is it because we make it so or because it is…either way I’m so upset I have to be away this far. I constantly have these thoughts of "what if’s" …then I know it’s pointless. what I should really do is face the reality and not make it put me down

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